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One of the most searing Portraits of doll’s desperation ever put in Akan’s story.

It’s time to tell about essential, minimal, brutal things in Life. Isn’t it?

Akan had tried terribly hard to postpone this moment when a dark whispering murmur of the wind would came.

But it happened despite that.
This wind was the announcement of death.
Somebody in the tower was going to leave tragically.
This doll didn’t deserve to die alone nor endure this hard life.
This black day was actually a relief for this tenant, a squatter in fact.

She had been hiding in a basement for a few days after having run away from Bresson-City.

Her name was Doll “Mouchette”.


She came from the county of Bernanoshire, where she had lived in hardship in Bresson-city.
There she had faced major difficulties: a dying mother, an alcoholic father who was absent, and a baby brother in need of care.


She had been subjected to derision from her teachers.

“Nothing but a little savage” was how the Bresson-city school-teacher had described fourteen-year-old Mouchette, and that view had been echoed by every right-thinking local citizen.
Mouchette had been alone, completely alone, against everyone.”



Her mother was too sick to get out of bed,  Mouchette had been forced to take on the motherly tasks, preparing everyone’s meals and feeding her younger sibling.

At one point, it even looked like she might try breastfeeding when there was no fire on the stove to heat the baby’s milk.



She had been forced to be an adult even before her body was capable.
Also one dark night she had been raped by a bad man in a wood.


As tragedies continued to pile up, she had decided to leave Bresson-city and to take her life into her own hands, like a last act of defiance.
Mouchette doll was the most beautiful of dolls despite her tangled black hair, her dirty nails, and her wooden clogs.
Akan didn’t know Mouchette, until she had gone to bathe in the river with her friend Betsy, anorexic paper-doll and the severed hand of the doll who had disappeared.
It was the spring of 2011 in April.
It was still very chilly and the wind was twisting and twirling the petals of the young trees in bloom.
This supremely delicate dance had attracted a sad person.


“Mouchette finds rescue and peace in the nature”.

A young doll soiled by the earth and misery, with black hair matted and covered with dust, was sitting, stretched out on the ground, on the green bank: Mouchette.

Betsy who was unable to swim, given that her paper body would disintegrate, was also seated on the other side of the river, looking after the towels of her friends, Akan and Syndra Raynaud.

Akan and Syndra were playing in the cool water splashing each other and diving into the depths.
Their bodies glided in the light, with the thinness of Akan’s body magnificent in the light of the ripples, her skin both pale and livid embellishing the river.
Syndra, the severed hand of the doll who had disappeared, with her long fingers, mimicked the touching grace of a starfish.
Syndra became a mischievous mermaid jumping in the silvery waters; her fingers did not feel the slightest cold or the slightest increase in temperature: a kind of provisional harmony!


Suddenly a cry, Betsy, panicked, helpless, witness of the worst, the death of Mouchette.


Mouchette had let herself roll from the top of the bank like a lifeless puppet carried away by her own momentum down the slope.

{Of course, she does it alone, so maybe Bresson isn’t letting us off the hook after all.

Maybe putting up with a hard life leads us to even harder, more isolated positions.

In the prologue, Mouchette’s mother refers to a stone that is inside her, a metaphor for her illness.

But then, it could be where we all end up, weighted down, and the more we struggle, like a bird ensnared in a poacher’s trap, the more it hurts.

Bresson only releases Mouchette by letting that full weight land on her, and thus pushing her under.}

Mouchette let herself slide into the cold water, drown in icy water, on this beautiful sunny morning in mid-April.

Akan and Syndra had seen nothing, but felt the tumult of the circles in the water left by the despairing leap of the Doll Mouchette.


Betsy stiff with pain, dried out with sadness, stiffened even more before the now empty water.

It was April 14, 2011, Doll Mouchette would leave an enormous hole in the lives of Akan and her friends.

Bresson, director of the masterpiece, says:

“Mouchette offers evidence of misery and cruelty.

She is found everywhere: wars, concentration camps, tortures, assassinations.”



For Mouchette. Alice Odilon December 2010.

Anorexic Fantasy

{One of Einstein’s great insights was to realize that matter and energy are really different forms of the same thing.

Matter can be turned into energy, and energy into matter.}

The “anorexic field” delivers content because it gets a lack of existence generating “bodily space-time”.

The anorexic feels pure energy largely invisible and executing essential actions.

During the anorexic travel, the physical body lives almost suspended and cannot communicate in real time with others.

The continuum space-time has four dimensions: for three-dimensional space, x, y, and z, and for a time t.

To handle more easily, it is arranged that the four axis are uniform at a distance by multiplying t by the constant c.

The body of the anorexic girl is measured as any other mass diagram XYZ and the 4th dimension: time.

But in the case of the anorexic girl, the homogeneous axis XT are longer than the YZ axis, also homogeneous between them.

The unification of space and time occurs at a rate equal to that of light.

“Blythe crossed by light’. Copyright Alice ODILON 2009.

When the anorexic body reaches transparency, nearly “massless”, it can be forgotten in the light.

This will allow a faster, denser experience of life, more emotional, less padded and comfortable than the cocoon of obese people.

It happens a “hypertely vertigo” of physical and emotional existence.

We can compares this template XT to other organisms in nature like swallows, butterflies, starfishs, oysters, Azawakhs, snowflakes drops of water, blood, milk etc. ……

The template XT has all of the great flexibility of a mystical Cristal Mustang.

What makes it very very very strong but also very vulnerable.

The template XT becomes a dynamic projectile form and merges with the fabric of space-time as its weight is negligible and its extreme speed, making it almost invisible on the space-time frame.

Besides the net space-time does not deform it.

We can say that the gauge XT has reached space-time and makes one with him.

From there, the template XT mays consider more different scales of motion than other satellites and can play thousands of views unlike the others receiving only one.

Like any virtual photon, the anorexic girl would have a limited time of existence but extremely dense, fuel energy.

Back to point zero repository gives life to the space-time anorexic body.

Alice ODILON. December 2009.

Anorexia: The Rest of my Body

There has been a shambles, a shipwreck in my family.

I’m the little survivor, an unexpected seed which grew up badly.

Some people say: “I’m a warrior, nothing will be left after me”!

As an anorexic girl I would rather say: “After the shambles you made, would it be possible for me to develop, but I would try”.

All my strength was used to stand the strain of the lack of love from the only one I expected it from : my Mother.

If I were to compare myself to a living thing, I would be a poor plain-looking plant in a dark path, or a sea star missing a limb in a tidal pool.


“Amputee du Coeur”. Copyright Alice ODILON 2009. No clone is free.

I’m a survivor.

I’m an X.

Only the living rough X knows the way to exist in front of my Mother or other predators.

If we want to abridge this complex growing phenomenon, we could say, I drastically cut my body by removing my trunk and my head.


“Rupture de Coeur”. Copyright Alice ODILON 2009. No clone is free.

I just kept in my mind the trace of an empty cage sheltering non-existent innards and guts, a long time ago.

Then I kept my eyes, my mouth, my sex, but I lost my face.

Finally I matched my right arm to my left leg and the same on the opposite side and I got a cross.


A “body cross” with eyes and mouth on my oral face (stomach face – lower face), sex everywhere on my arms and legs, and anus on my aboral face (front – upper face) in the center of my pentagon body.

Finally an erotic holy body X, because if we consider the point of view of God, nothing else would be noticed on the Judgment Day, as guts that usually support all the pains of life are not taken into consideration and have always been considered as rubbish.


“Oculaire Cardiaque”. Copyright Alice ODILON 2009. No clone is free.

There I am: a living broomstick cross.

And if you have a better look at my limbs, they’re actually quite smooth and soft.


Photo retouchee de منتديات ستار تايمز

Sometimes my limbs seem swollen to intimate they want to be touched, as they’re so smooth.

Alice ODILON. 26 Septembre 2009.

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