Anorectic Mother (mother of anorexic person)

 

 

"C’est une Victoire". copyright Alice ODILON 2006.


In this picture you can see Akoya the anorexic doll, achieving her terrible target of the

starvation in order to get a sort of control about her stressfull life with her anxiogene Mother.

Akoya meets the "non-return" point.

Anorexia symbolises the ultimate purpose (the Death) for the denied daughter

of the anorectic mother.

We can say that the bodily appearance of an anorexic person is a parade against the Mother.

The Mother symbolises “the Other”, she’s the good or the bad mother, she can be the

killer, she can be the protecting Angel.


 - ("Mère suffisamment bonne…….


La notion de mère suffisamment bonne vient des théorisations de Donald Winnicott

qui s’inspirait des idées de Mélanie Klein qui parlait d’expériences suffisamment bonnes

pour l’enfant et désignait implicitement les soins maternels.

C’est une conception qui, hors des conceptions psychanalytiques de Winnicott,

peut se réduire à des visions moralisatrices et adaptatrices qui suscitent

légitimement débats et controverses.


Superficiellement on peut résumer la mère suffisamment bonne comme celle qui

sait donner des réponse équilibrées aux besoins du nourrisson, ni trop ni trop peu.

On l’oppose à une mère qui ne serait pas assez bonne.

C’est-à-dire qui laisserait l’enfant en souffrance et dans l’angoisse néantisante.

On l’oppose aussi à une mère qui serait trop bonne. C’est-à-dire qu’elle répondrait

trop aux besoins de l’enfant, et ne le laisse pas assez ressentir le manque

qui est également essentiel à sa constitution, plus précisément a l’identification

du moi comme différencié de la mère.

Ce trop maintient l’enfant dans une sensation de toute puissance et d’omnipotence.

Winnicott lie ces réponses de la mère à la constitution du soi en vrai ou en faux.

En Français, pour distinguer cette expression, on a gardé le terme anglais pour

désigner le vrai et le faux self.

Cette notion s’oppose donc a celle de la bonne mère (si elle pousse vers le toujours plus),

pour introduire l’idée d’une réponse qui doit être équilibrée, suffisante,

mais pas débordante.

("Ces principes ne font pas office de jugement et ne s’attachent pas a décrire la personne de la mère,

mais le rapport de l’enfant a un objet maternel, qui peut en partie, mais pas nécessairement,

être lié à la personne physique.")


At the beginning of life (first 2 months of life) the baby asks for food and Love, then Love and food.

en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Transitional_object


The “true self” is built by the positive replies of the Mother to the claiming child.

The “fake self” is built by the negative replies of the Mother.

fr.wikipedia.org/wiki/Donald_Winnicott#Vrai_self.2C_faux_self

But for the anorexic person, the link with the Mother is not so simple, the omnipotent

absent-present Mother has a dangerous hold over her child.

She can be present and be bad and she can be absent and be good, in the sense she won’t harm

or confuse the baby.

It’s a double-bind world.

The mother doesn’t name the place of her child.

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L’hirondelle volée

Il doit être 1 heure de l’après-midi, et une chaleur encombrante monte dans la rue

où nos deux personnages entament un long débat.

- Vous marchez trop vite! si vous voulez parler, ralentissez!

Votre rythme délibérément accéléré me fatigue!

S’écrie la jeune fille suivant le pas furtif de Akan déjà quelques mètres devant elle.

- Oh! excusez moi, j’aime tant aller vite, engager la voie, m’élever presque du sol.


“Elle s’élève”.Copyright Alice ODILON 2010

Je ne me rends pas compte, je vais comme l’oiseau.

C’est joli votre tatouage à l’intérieur de votre bras gauche!

C’est étrange; ces hirondelles naturalistes, s’imprègnent en vous

comme une plaie bleue marine.

- Vraiment trop long à cicatriser, cela met du temps à se faire oublier.

- Et quel est le sens de ce logo au centre du tatouage?

- Personnel, cela ne vous regarde pas.


- Excusez moi encore de mon indiscrétion.

C’est que j’aime les hirondelles, voyez-vous?

Les martinets m’ont sifflé le secret de la liberté, grâce à leurs cris,

leur vol périlleux rasant les murs de l’enceinte ténébreuse contrôlée par ma mère,

j’ai pu tenir dans la nuit, alors qu’il faisait encore jour en ces étés superbes.

Les hirondelles m’avertissaient de ce qui métait possible encore de tenter

pour m’échapper de l’emprise.

Dans les moments les plus noirs, quand j’étais seule dans mon lit loin du monde,

j’entendais leurs cris, et c’était tout.


- Pourquoi me dites vous ces choses? Cela ne me concerne pas et ne me touche pas.

- Peut-être bien. Elles sont tellement importantes pour moi.

Vous savez quand je suis devenue femme, je pensais toujours aux hirondelles.

Un jour, à Paris, rue de la Paix, une lumière blanche a captivé mon regard

dans une vitrine abondante d’un joaillier.

Sur un banc de velours bleu, étincelait une hirondelle en or blanc sertie de diamants.

Je suis entrée et je l’ai achetée sans réfléchir.

Je la voulais autour de mon cou, mais c’était une erreur, une hirondelle ne s’attache pas.

D’ailleurs elle s’est vite envolée, on me l’a volée peu de temps après.


“L’hirondelle s’envole après avoir été volée”. Copyright Alice ODILON 2010.


Je l’avais mise dans un coffret et je ne l’ai plus jamais retrouvée.

je l’ai cherchée longtemps, puis je me suis consolée de l’avoir perdue,

car je ne l’avais pas oubliée.


- Ce n’est pas moi qui l’ai volée!

- Bien sûr que non! vous l’avez seulement dessinée et graver dans la chair de votre bras,

mais une hirondelle ne se représente pas, un signe s’écrit, l’hirondelle s’écrit dans le ciel,

ce n’est pas un dessin, elle écrit sa vie, elle s’écrie de cette conscience acérée

de la vie.

Dessiner une hirondelle sonne comme un non sens. voyez-vous?

- Non je ne vois pas, je veux que vous voyez mon tatouage, que vous me regardiez

et que vous me trouviez belle.

Ce tatouage m’est désormais attitré, ces foutus oiseaux indélébiles crèvent dans mon épiderme,

je dois faire avec, et vos histoires je m’en fous.

Elles ne peuvent plus bouger maintenant, ni elle, ni vous, vous entendez?

je n’ai rien demandé aux hirondelles si ce n’est qu’elles se taisent à jamais dans ma peau.

Que le ciel devienne ma peau partout, pour elle, pour cette mère que je déteste!

Que ma chair avale les hirondelles et ma mère!

Et maintenant poussez-vous, partez! que je vous oublie aussi fort que le coeur!


- Alors, Adieu, répondit Akan, mystérieuse et libre.

Alice ODILON. Copyright 3/7/2010

It must be 1:00 pm , and a cumbersome heat goes up in the street where our

two characters start a long debate.

- You walk too quickly! if you want to speak, slow down!

Your deliberately accelerated rhythm tires me!

Exclaims the young girl according to the furtive step of Akan already

a few meters in front of her.

- Oh! excuse me, I like so much to go quickly, engage the way, take of almost.

- I do not realize, I go my way like a bird.

That’ a nice tattoo you’ve got on the inside of your left arm!

That’s  strange; these naturalist  swallows, impregnate your skin like a marine blue wound.

- Really too long to heal, it takes to much time to made me forget it.

- And what does mean this logo in the center of the tattoo?

- Private. It’s not your business.

- Again Please accept my apologises for my indiscretion.

That’s because I love  swallows,  you see?

The swifts whistled to me the secrecy of freedom.

Thanks to their cries, thanks to their perilous flight shaving the walls,

- the dark enclosure of my mother – I could stay in the dark, during these nights of Summer.

The swallows informed me what was still possible to try for me

to escape from the morbid hold of my mother.

In the blackest moments, when I was obliged to go to bed far from the world,

I heard their cries, and that was it.

- Why are you letting me know all these things?

That does not relate to me and does not touch me.

- Perhaps well. They are so important for me.

You know when I became woman, I always thought of the swallows.

One day, in Paris, Rue de la paix, a white light captivated my glance

in an abundant window of a jeweller.

On a blue velvet bench, was glittering a swallow in white gold crimped of diamonds.

I entered and I bought it without any doubt.

I wanted it around my neck; but it was an error, a swallow cannot live captive.

Although it was quickly flown away: it was stolen next year after.

I had put it in a box and  l never found it again.

I had sought it for a long time, then I comforted myself with the dead thought I had lost it.

But I have never forgotten it.

- I didn’t stole it!

- Of course not! You only drew and engrave it in the flesh of your arm,

but a swallow cannot be drawn, a sign writes itself, a swallow  writes itself in the sky,

thisis not a drawing, it writes its own life, with its sharp-edged conscience of  life.

To draw a swallow sounds like no sense. Do you understand?

- No I don’t see what you mean, the only thing I want is that you would admire my tattoo,

that you look at me and that you find me amazing.

This tattoo is me, these bloody indelible birds die in my skin,

I must deal with them by now.

They cannot move any more now,

neither them, nor you, you listen?

I only asked  the swallows they would keep silent forever in my skin.

Let the sky become my skin everywhere,

Let my flesh swallow the swallows and my mother!

And now get away, leave!

I want forget you!

- Then, Good-bye, answered Akan, mysterious and free.

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The original anorexic Effort of Life

Definition of effort:

Struggle, striving.

Effort, application, endeavor, exertion imply actions directed or force expended

toward a definite target.

Effort is an expenditure of energy to accomplish some objective:

"she made an effort to control herself."

Effort involves resistance, speed, power, endurance, strength and the list goes

on when we talk about anorexia.

Application is continuous effort plus careful attention: constant application to duties. 

Endeavor means a continued and sustained series of efforts to achieve some,

often worthy and difficult, end: a constant endeavor to be thin. 

Exertion is the vigorous and often strenuous expenditure of energy,

frequently without an end: out of breath from exertion.


We can speak of "hypertelic anorexic effort" of life.

That means anorexic effort doesn't have any other target that to never stop

and improve the score of thinness and will power.

At one stage, the effort is done because it's the reason to stay alive, as no sense

has been found or retrieved in its own existence.


It's not "dying to be thin", it's starving to stay alive.


We can speak of spiritual fast {that incorporates personal spiritual beliefs

with the desire to express personal principles.}

I'm pretty sure, that common anorexia is an aspiration of spiritual transformation,

because the anorexic person at this stage feels all is wrong with her and her beliefs,

her acquired social behaviours.


She wants to take control of her life.

It doesn't necessary means that the pre-anorexic person is a psychotic individual.

That means there's been a misdeal at the origin or at a certain decisive point.

And something has to be changed obviously for vital reason.

Original, careless Anorexic tactic becomes unavoidable, inexhaustible,

(and certainly unacceptable for those getting the power of the phallocratic establishment.)


This opening phase of taking control inaugurates the need

to be in charge with its own life.

The suffering subject finds the way to destroy her stress

and negative self in "miraculous lack of appetite".

Starvation offers access to another world of new, original sensations.

Previous boring colourless life appears as lifeless, infertile experience.

Prodigious anorexia shows the way of re-birth and freedom.

But there is a very high price for "anorexic takeoff."

The candidate for this ultimate challenge has to be brave and persistent

to get the achievement of herself.

It's all about character.

A sort of endless marathon with no mercy.

And therefore the anorexic person, nourishing herself with nearly nothing,

will show an effective force

as distinguished from the possible resistance

called into action by such a force.



"self-portrait: Anorexic marathon" 2010. copyright Alice ODILON

 

It's all about highest level and mind labor.

The anorexic girl comes from a dark point to a bright one.

She applies a drastic effort to exercise against maximal resistance,

like she would have to lift a maximal load.

 

"La Tête de Cheval" 1984. Copyright Alice ODILON


 

She was so depressed in her previous normal life.

Now targeting size zero, she finds happiness and feels much secure.

There is a sense of this anorexic tactic: finding the light, finding the other way

to live an eternal new imprudent life.

Jeopardized anorexic life incarnates security and future for the courageous candidate.

Probably the anorexic effort (starvation, hyper-activity, high level of sport training,

faith in light) permits to reach the best thing in life.

Because nothing is much better than to be an unfinished person.

 

 

 

"The endless bridge of anorexia".copyright Alice ODILON 2010


The 22th of March 2010.

Alice ODILON.






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Anorexia: The Irreversible Figure

 

I use photography as an analysis (beyond my control).

 

(By trying to give up my anorexic control, and without my Psychoanalyst RB, my friend.)

 

To make a photo is to lye on the couch and make free associations.

 

 

 

 

La figure irreversible copie

 

"The Irreversible Figure A". copyright Alice ODILON 2009. No clone is free.

 

 

 

At the start, losing control of my thoughts was simply obscene to me,

 

and I always looked for a pure sense of my associations.

 

 

Then I lived with, I seized, as so aptly Magritte,


an image is a way of describing a thought.


(This inspired thought units visible things so that their mystery is evoked.


The thoughts suggesting the mystery are like the world because


the world is mystery.)





The idea pushed by the unconscious links the opposites, giving an alive referent.


(The paradoxical relationship between representation and reality make disappear the resemblance.)


Magritte uses the banality of the common place to the visible world


but also to reveal something else.


The picture is a setting in abyss of words and images,


without ever finding the right direction.



I think Magritte was constantly trying to find his "I",


denying the real alienation of Disorder,


(Chilhood bereaved by the suicide of his mother), and demonstrated the presence


of invisible point: the unconscious, the only country of use.


The mystery is enjoyment because it cannot be revealed.


There is a strong parallelism between the mirror stage,


Magritte and his research,on one hand, and on the other hand, the Myth of Persée and Medusa,


and anorexia, (development gap between perception and reality


by the thinness convulsing the expected image) .


As said Persée beheading the Medusa: "I was not where you could see me."


The anorexic girl foils the disposition of the superego with


using her irreversible thinness first kept secret and hiden


by the coat that conceals the anorexic.(maintained in the agreed superego).



We can  say that the superego denies the unconscious.



 



L'Arme copie


"The Weapon." 2001. Copyright Alice ODILON. No clone is free.


 

 

 

Then the sickle of apparent odds arises in front of the other

 

and the anorexic girl kills him…

 

At the beginning the anorexic girl is initially invisible in her mystery

 

behind her sudden and lethal weapon: the bone sickle.

 

Her symptom has not been noticed yet by the others.

 

 

 

So the clothes being metaphorical image, 

the anorexic girl will consistently hiding in the folds or at least the broad 

to live in the spaces between body and fabric.

 

Mimétique Dentelle

 

"Mimétique Dentelle". Copyright Alice ODILON 1977.

 

 

 

 

Given that the skin is the mirror between the inside and outside,

 

between form and magma body; I might say that the anorexic girl

 

installs a gap between the skin and flesh, and another between the skin and clothing.

 

The anorexic girl uses this deviant strategy because she does not enter

 

in a standardized and castrating language.

 

 

 

She wants to keep and give to see what she doesn’t have.

 

But she goes further because she falls in the spiral of irreversibility

 

namely making her weight lighter each day toward the ultimate infinity.

 

It is not in a time loop, it is an hypertely vertigo of time.


She happens to herself because she is time-bound body.

 

(The elusive moment of time, there is one, it is blank.

 

This is one of that, the irreversible real.)

 

She does not stop the time, she flows into the movement

 

of the seconds and his overactive body to appear just a short time.

 

The irreversible time makes everything new each time,

 

every moment, unic, "there is one," as said Lacan.

 

 

 


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"She will be re-born from herself from her bones and limbs". Copyright Alice ODILON 2009.

 

 

 

 

(The word reel in French gives leer to read it backwards, says Lacan.

 


{Leer in German means empty: the real, time is the thrust of the vacuum,

 

or, as physicists say "the vacuum is a push."

 

But this is not the empty hollow space which is usually a surge,

 

that is the void of time which is a thrust.

 

In the vacuum of space we fall in the time and come up in a dance.}

 

Guy Massat. Psychoanalyst.

 

 

 

 

Top of Fur By Issey MIYAKE  copie

 

"Inside Out" as Top of Issey Miyake 2001. Copyright Alice ODILON.


 

 

 

 

 

 

{"Gradually everything will start to fail in its place”.} Claude RABANT.

 

 

Anorexia Is a dance without a trace.moon29

Alice ODILON November 2009.


 

 

 

 

 

 


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Anorexic Blythe

Blythe pleure    090610_JNA7_diw

"Blythe" © 2009 Hasbro. All Rights Reserved.

If I consider that prominence of sight pulsion, body image distortion, control of mind are signs of anorexia,

I can think that "Blythe Doll" might be a representation of an anorexic doll or anorexic girl.

Did you have already eyes contact with Blythe?

Their impact is the first thing you would remind from her, as they're huge and her  bright face as well

comparing the scale of her puny body.

And it works!

Thousand of people wants to have Blythe because something is so strong in her!

I dare to think that's her great eyes and her special build with a huge head and a frail body

could be a successful combination for being memorized, and becoming special and loved.

These cute, puppy proportions have the WOW "factor".

And that approximately the same drastic strategy that an anorexic girl tries to use.

 

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"Isabelle CARO".

en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Isabelle_Caro -   

http://neigeisabelle.blog.mongenie.com/

 

She wants to connect with your mind, not with your body.

A sort of hypnosis is going to occurs between her and you.

 

Alice Odilon 1984-J-1

"Self-portrait" Alice ODILON. copyright 1984. No clone is free

 

She avoids physical contact, in using an overwhelming X-ray glance,  because she has put her small body on one side

and she wants to do the same with yours.

There's no space between her soul and yours.

Why?

- Because her own very bad and poor experience of "her Mother's holding-handling".

 

{"But what happens if the mother does not provide the holding environment in which the Child can grow and become a healthy self,

or provides too much stimulation, for example to painful levels?

The child's psychological development ceases and experiences impingement.

He could feel ignored, because his desires are not answered and could experience problems in his own subjectivity.

The child can even become traumatized, and develope a sense much more than another.

{Winnicott felt that a good-enough mother allows herself to be used by the infant (Doll)

so that he or she may develop a healthy sense of omnipotence which will naturally be frustrated as the child matures.

Winnicott's theory is especially innovative regarding his conceptualization of the psychic space between the mother and infant,

neither wholly psychological or physical, which he termed the "holding environment" and which allows for the child's transition

to being more autonomous.

This concept of the "holding environment" led Winnicott to develop his famous theory of the "transitional object."

Winnicott felt that a failure of the mother — the not-good-enough mother — to provide a "holding environment"

would result in a false self disorder, the kind of disorders which he saw in his practice."}

http://mythosandlogos.com/Winnicott.html

 

So I love Dolls, Blythe espacially, because she has been very clever to introduce herself in the heart of many people,

that unconsciously have a fondness for prominence use of their scopic pulsion.

So do I.

Alice ODILON. 15 Octobre 2009

 

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