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“Nade dans la Chambre Jaune.” 2011. Copyright Alice Odilon.

Dans la chambre jaune Nade s’est enfermée depuis hier soir.

La jeune femme se hisse dans l’espace clos dont la paroi mal éclairée cache des objets soustraits à la vue, des boîtes à chaussures vides, un butin.
L’alcôve d’un boudoir, la lumière rouge et blanche, des photos, un tableau ovale sur le mur: “Madame Bovary”.

Ce petit retrait de femme joue le rôle de bunker- sentinelle. (Panic-room semblerait aussi, approprié.)

De la fenêtre masquée par trois tentures en désaccord, Nade peut voir arriver de la rue, anticiper la venue des policiers.

Elle guette de temps en temps le bruit d’un moteur inconnu, plus puissant que d’ordinaire.

Dans ce cachot de nid, elle arrange des boîtes les unes aux autres, les étiquette afin de se rappeler, mettre à distance les évidences de son future proche.

Alice Odilon. Copyright.

Akan’s Tower ou le monde du morcellement

Si je devais révéler des secrets sur Akan, je ne pourrais pas en dire très long quant à sa grande intimité, car en fait Akan est particulièrement transparente et complexe.

Il suffit de retrouver dans chacun de ses amis de la Tour Akanienne (symbole de l’envolée, du chemin vers le spirituel), une facette de ses multiples personnalités.

- La Main coupée “Syndra Raynaud” représente le trauma de la perte, la coupure de la vie par le vide. Elle se dit “Illusion Corporelle”.

“Syndra Raynaud” the Phantom pain. Alice Odilon. Copyrights

 

C’est aussi le fantôme de la perte, sa mémoire, son fétiche.

Elle représente une mesure draconnienne sauvant la vie du corps menaçant de pourrir.

Symboliquement, Akan y est très “attachée” car le Syndrome de Raynaud joue le rôle d’étalon de l’anorexie; on pourrait dire “signe de reconnaissance”, “un code d’appartenance” au clan des anorexiques.

 

- Blythe Somat, la poupée-Fleur est un être extraordinaire aux pouvoirs magiques et en même temps épongeuse de souffrances.

“Blythe Somat, the Flower-Doll.”Google Images

 

(Elle sert de médium entre l’enfant hémiplégique, anorexique et schyzophrène et Françoise Dolto qui parvient à communiquer avec elle en la ramenant vers la parole, et donc, l’action de se libérer.)

la Poupée-Fleur n’a pas d’yeux, mais elle a des pétales sensorielles, elle ne parle pas car elle n’a pas de bouche, mais elle souffre et crie en silence, elle a un corps de poupée, mais sa tête c’est une fleur.

{Françoise Dolto a eu l’idée de cette poupée-fleur lorsqu’elle était enfant. En réalité, elle la conçoit en 1946, au cours d’une consultation où sont venues à sa rencontre Bernadette, une petite fille anorexique de 5 ans et demi, et sa mère.

Celle-ci se plaint de ce que sa fille n’aime ni les poupées animales ni les poupées humaines.

Accablée par la haine envers elle-même qu’elle ressent chez cette petite fille profondément paranoïaque, Dolto lui propose: «Et pourquoi pas une poupée-fleur?».

Aussitôt, elle donne à la mère les indications pour la fabriquer, devant Bernadette, qui saute de joie à cette idée.

Recouverte de tissu vert, cette poupée n’a ni devant ni derrière, ni mains ni pieds, et figure la seule forme humaine, la stature droite que l’enfant peut tenir en main.

Le volume figurant la tête est juste surmonté d’une corolle blanche de marguerite.

Autrement dit, tout comme une interprétation, cette poupée a été conçue entre les différents protagonistes de la scène analytique.}

{“Le Dr Lacan a le sentiment de plus en plus vif que la poupée-fleur de Mme Dolto s’intègre dans ses recherches personnelles sur l’imago du corps propre et le stade du miroir et du corps morcelé.

Il trouve important que la poupée-fleur n’ait pas de bouche et après avoir fait remarquer qu’elle est un symbole sexuel et qu’elle masque le visage humain, il termine en disant qu’il espère apporter un jour un commentaire théorique à l’apport de Mme Dolto.”}(Intervention sur l’exposé de F.Dolto-Marette).

Elle est très proche de celui qui souffre, toujours très proche, car elle écoute, sent, ressent, et donne son corps en passage vers la vie.

 ”Akan” ou l’ébauche du Self.  Alice Odilon 1/08/2011. copyrights.

 

 

- Le timide Ragdoll “Weaky” aux yeux bleus Caraïbes, le sauveur impuissant, est le seul être masculin de l’équipe.

“Weaky the Ragdoll cat”. Alice Odilon. Copyrights 2010.

Il absorbe du regard, il parle très bas, il est comme Blythe Somat, soumis à la méchanceté des autres, mais aussi très clairvoyant et lunaire.

- La Poupée “Whouh”  au masque de loup, avec son corps de petite fille menue et tonique, vêtue de sa robe écossaise au col mousseline, et dont on ne voit jamais le visage.

Weaky and Whouh, the wolf masked doll. Alice Odilon Copyrights 2010.

On ne voit de son apparât féminin, que sa belle chevelure lourde et ondulante qui s’étale sur son dos.

Whouh est tout l’inverse de Weaky, le Ragdoll bouc émissaire, elle devient une créature offensive, protectrice, n’ayant pas froid aux yeux, toujours prête à bondir pour défendre les plus faibles.

Whouh incarne une victime masquée devenue guerrier.

Le masque de loup a un rôle de bouclier; il sert à intimider l’adversaire, et sert à cacher la vulnérabilité et l’innocence de Whouh.

 

 

- La Poupée androgyne “Isee”, maigre et nue, chauve et belle, racée aux muscles longs et secs.

“Isee”, la flamme des Jane DOE. Alice Odilon. 2011. Copyrights

 

Ce personnage là revient de l’enfer de la prostitution, de la rue, de la route en solitaire.

Elle a vu des personnes mourir dans les fossés, des femmes assassinées coupée en morceaux, elle connaît le désespoir total des suicidés, elle est la flamme des Jane et des John Doe.

“Isee” symbolise l’abandonnée, la personne oubliée, sans nom, sans toit.

- “Mova”  l’avatar marathonien, est une athlète éternelle au coeur solide, aux jambes longues et déliées, et au regard fixé vers l’avant toujours.

- Allegraka c’est la prof de vol, la figure bridge entre le sol et le ciel.

Elle twitte, tumblre, digg, wikiote, facebook, elle envoie des messages sur le web, pour parler de ses amies de la Tour, des messages sans aucun commentaires de quique ce soit, car personne ne les lit.

- Akan se trouve dans chacun de ces personnages; parfois décide, souvent se tait et laisse l’équipe prendre la bonne option, parfois disparaît dans sa chambre pendant des jours, pour dormir et s’oublier.

Tout cette merveilleuse équipe partage les heures de la vie dans la Tour Akanienne, Paradis des hirondelles, centre de traitement pour anorexiques, et immeuble gratte-ciel HLM immense aux couloirs infinis.

Puis je vous parlerai des patientes du centre de réadaptation de la Tour Akanienne…..

Dans le prochain poste………

Bonne Nuit les Petits….

PS: J’oubliais Betsy Mac Call, american paper doll, si plate, si fine, si intense, déchirable et souffrante.

 

Betsy Mac Call, the American Paper-doll. Alice Odilon.copyrights 2010.

Alice Odilon. 1/08/2011. Tous droits réservés.


5 anorexic candidates and 3 babies

One of the three unwanted Babies.

The Game had begun a few hours after our 5 sure candidates had signed their contracts and swore they would take care of 3 newborn human babies.

One of them was entrusted to Asaël Rienick and Avatan Nihili, another one to Whitswimm and Aza Wahk, and the Third one, to single “parent” : Tige Ald.

 

Asaël Rienick, the Tightrope sleepwalker and Avatan Nihili the teenager.

 

Whiteswimm the Ballerina and Aza Wakh the marathonian girl.

 

 Tige Ald the Contorsionnist.

Then the clauses and terms were clearly established: Just 2 Candidates and a baby will get an award at the end of the competition.

In fact this challenge consisted in successive tests of resistance as long walks, starvation, test of courage and ability to fast for months and potentiality to huddle tightly in order to endure extremely harsh conditions of abuse, freezing temperatures, hostile attitude of potential meet people, depression, despair, self-destruction, suicide drive…..

For the first time since the beginning of the competition, Akan came in the meeting room of Rehab Center and told to the assembly all about the rules.

All candidates had to go to main gym hall, and prepare to run for 26,2 miles on tread mill running.

(There is no doubt that challenging an anorexic body to run 26.2miles, takes more than a huge amount of commitment, compromises and sacrifices.)

But were our frail candidates able to take on this challenge?

They would be served all the energetic and tasty breakfast they would need before, whether they wanted or not, they would have to be ready after meal for the Marathon on Tread mill running.

Asaël Rienick, Aza Wakh, and Tige Ald would have to carry their precious treasure: the baby, 8 days old, coming from Orphanage, found on the street, lost and unwanted little creature.

Then after this “easy” run, Asaël Rienick would entrusted her baby to Avatan Nihili; Aza Wakh would do the same to Whiteswimm and Tige Ald would have to keep the baby for another round.

I know it was completely unfair to give to one candidate a double target to reach, but life is like that, cruel and unjust, pitiless as well.

As you know certainly, anorexic people don’t like eating normal meal, absorbing usual need of calories to win and to breathe, either to survive.

Because anorexic people find their strength in a secret part of their self: their embodied soul.

- So, as expected, nobody touched the buffet before the first test of resistance.

Unlike their own starvation, our candidates had been immediately involved in their new babysitter role, and never babies received such nice care and attention.

- You need to know that anorexic mothers, (in despite their past of abused children and deprived of love during their childhood) are excellent mothers, because “L’amour c’est donner ce que l’on a pas reçu”.

- Yes Our candidates presented all signs to be “good-enough Mothers “. (as described by Donald Winnicot)

{“The good-enough mother…starts off with an almost complete adaptation to her infant’s needs, and as time proceeds she adapts less and less completely, gradually, according to the infant’s growing ability to deal with her failure…” (from “Transitional Objects and Transitional Phenomena,” 1951)}

Each baby had been a priority, (every pair of candidates and solo Tige Ald had been excellent nurses, with love, attention and lot of cuddles accorded to the demanding child they had to take care about.

- Anorexic people have always reserve of energy in mind, and some are able to struggle for a marathon, that means 3-4 hours of intensive effort.

But after, they’re more than empty and have to admit to be feed even a little bit.

Hypoglycemia represents one of biggest threat on Marathon and collapsing can happen suddenly when blood sugar below 70mg/dL. Blood sugars at this level can harm you badly.

“Untreated, hypoglycemia from too much insulin can lead to loss of consciousness and coma.

Severe hypoglycemia is a medical emergency that may result in seizures and permanent damage to the nervous system if not treated.

Severe hypoglycemia that results in unconsciousness is also called insulin shock.”

In despite all of these common ideas of good tips for good runner, our three anorexic young women were able to finish their marathon in less than 3 hours, with baby on the back, sleeping tight and having sweet dreams, feeling secure with “Running Mummy”.

Alice Odilon. 29/07/2011. All rights reserved.

Only 5 anorexic candidates on the row

As you know, Akan’s team had announced her final list of Candidates for “Worst anorexic Journey 1991″ .

All the anorexic players had to sign their contracts by First May, consenting to take care of an unwanted newborn.

The full list published was:

– 1 – Best Medium-sized anorexic winner:

- Avatan Nihili, 23kg teen girl who was nearly 1,75m and only 15 of age, but was brilliant at school and very shy.

– 2 – Best Small weight winner:

- Asael Rienick, 1,62 m for 21kg, who had been working as a self-employed “Tightrope sleepwalker” for 4 years, without harming her frail nimble disembodied body.

– 3 – Best New Anorexic winner:

- Hyppolyte H, was an ex-obese young cook, who had been starving for two years as Chief cook of Three stars Michelin restaurant, after discovering his true dream to become a trapeze artist.

 - 4 – Best Indoor fast girl:

- NatNat, ghostly weight-watcher coach who was definitely to weak to coach anybody dieting, but has been previously awarded as the fastest losing weight candidate in UK, that means losing 35 kg in 2 months.

– 5 – Best European Anorexic Line-up:

- Whiteswimm, pale and pinky dressed ballerina, who was vomiting every meal, even the most frugal one.

- 6 – Best Newcomer:

- Reine Frung: ex-psychiatrist fallen in storm of anorexia addiction, after being involved in a special unit “Beating eating-disorder” in NHS.

– 7 – Best Headliner:

- Andrée Solange J. , mother of five,  hard worker house wife managing in plus a cleaning company with 7 employees.

– 8 – Best Oversplit Ballistic Stretched Anorexic contortionist

- Tige Ald, who was able to practice super-split equally on both legs without any injuries and with a lot of enthusiasm.

– 9 – Best Anorexic Runner:

- Aza Wakh performing Paris Marathon in only 2 hours and 28 mn.

– 10 – Best Anorexic dancer:

- Ana Cunningham,  twin of Merce Cunningham, the Master of Choregraphy.

 

Finally after reflexion, 5 candidates standed down from the competition, as they probably felt to weak to accomplish such challenge.

In fact : Only Avatan Nihili, Asael Rienick, Tige Ald, Aza Wakh and Whiteswimm stayed on the row.

 

That means a teen, a tightrope sleep walker, a contortionist, a marathonian woman, and a ballerina.

 

 

Alice Odilon. 26/07/2011.

 

And the anorexic winners are…!

On 14 of April 1991, candidates had been selected by the Akan’s Team Jury and time has gone to give their name and identity.

Then, the best European anorexic candidates were revealed at a sold out ceremony which took place at Anta-city in the Flyinglands, on this opening night of the  24/24 Anorexia night, edition of Akan’s Company.

It was 22:42 pm and everybody was exhausted and hungry.

-  More than 333332 votes were cast by fans to decide the winners in the Worst Anorexia category.

- Best Medium-sized anorexic winner: Avatan Nihili, the 23 kg teen girl who was nearly 1,75m and only 15 of age, but was brilliant at school and very shy.

- Best Small weight winner: Asael Rienick, with her 1,62 m and her 21 kg, who had been working as a self-employed “Tightrope sleepwalker” for 4 years, without harming her frail nimble disembodied body.

 

“Self-Portrait” The Tightrope sleepwalker. Alice Odilon 2010. Copyrights

 

- Best New Anorexic winner: Hyppolyte H,  was an ex-obese young cook, who had been starving for two years as Chief cook of Three stars Michelin restaurant, after discovering his true dream to become a trapeze artist.


Pictures of flying trapeze artists at the peak moment of the grab. 

- Best Indoor fast girl: NatNat the ghostly weight-watcher coach who was definitely to weak to coach anybody dieting, but has been previously awarded as the fastest losing weight candidate in UK, that means losing 35 kg in 2 months.

- Best European Anorexic Line-up: Whiteswimm  the pale and pinky dressed ballerina, who was vomiting every meal, even the most frugal one.

“Akoya Ballet Dancer”. Alice Odilon 2007. Copyrights.

- Best Newcomer: Reine Frung: the ex-psychiatrist fallen in storm of anorexia addiction, after being involved in a special unit “Beating eating-disorder” in NHS.

- Best Headliner: Andrée Solange J. : mother of five,  hard worker house wife managing in plus a cleaning company with 7 employees.

- Best Oversplit Ballistic Stretched Anorexic contortionist Tige Ald, who was able to practice super-split equally on both legs without any injuries and with a lot of enthusiasm.

“Happy Contortionist”. Google Images

 

- Best Anorexic Runner: Aza Wakh performing Paris Marathon in only 2 hours and 28 mn.

 

“Self-Portrait” Anorexic Run. Alice Odilon Copyrights 2010

- Best Anorexic dancer: Ana Cunningham, who was the twin of Merce Cunningham, the Master of Choregraphy.

 

“Merce Cunningham”. Google Image.

Finally only 10 candidates have been selected.

Akan’s Team had considered how huge their task was to care of these 10 special persons and decided to close the competition with that, in order to manage these 10 anorexic characters, the best they could.

Alice Odilon. 7/7/2011. All right reserved.

 

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