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5 anorexic candidates and 3 babies

One of the three unwanted Babies.

The Game had begun a few hours after our 5 sure candidates had signed their contracts and swore they would take care of 3 newborn human babies.

One of them was entrusted to Asaël Rienick and Avatan Nihili, another one to Whitswimm and Aza Wahk, and the Third one, to single “parent” : Tige Ald.

 

Asaël Rienick, the Tightrope sleepwalker and Avatan Nihili the teenager.

 

Whiteswimm the Ballerina and Aza Wakh the marathonian girl.

 

 Tige Ald the Contorsionnist.

Then the clauses and terms were clearly established: Just 2 Candidates and a baby will get an award at the end of the competition.

In fact this challenge consisted in successive tests of resistance as long walks, starvation, test of courage and ability to fast for months and potentiality to huddle tightly in order to endure extremely harsh conditions of abuse, freezing temperatures, hostile attitude of potential meet people, depression, despair, self-destruction, suicide drive…..

For the first time since the beginning of the competition, Akan came in the meeting room of Rehab Center and told to the assembly all about the rules.

All candidates had to go to main gym hall, and prepare to run for 26,2 miles on tread mill running.

(There is no doubt that challenging an anorexic body to run 26.2miles, takes more than a huge amount of commitment, compromises and sacrifices.)

But were our frail candidates able to take on this challenge?

They would be served all the energetic and tasty breakfast they would need before, whether they wanted or not, they would have to be ready after meal for the Marathon on Tread mill running.

Asaël Rienick, Aza Wakh, and Tige Ald would have to carry their precious treasure: the baby, 8 days old, coming from Orphanage, found on the street, lost and unwanted little creature.

Then after this “easy” run, Asaël Rienick would entrusted her baby to Avatan Nihili; Aza Wakh would do the same to Whiteswimm and Tige Ald would have to keep the baby for another round.

I know it was completely unfair to give to one candidate a double target to reach, but life is like that, cruel and unjust, pitiless as well.

As you know certainly, anorexic people don’t like eating normal meal, absorbing usual need of calories to win and to breathe, either to survive.

Because anorexic people find their strength in a secret part of their self: their embodied soul.

- So, as expected, nobody touched the buffet before the first test of resistance.

Unlike their own starvation, our candidates had been immediately involved in their new babysitter role, and never babies received such nice care and attention.

- You need to know that anorexic mothers, (in despite their past of abused children and deprived of love during their childhood) are excellent mothers, because “L’amour c’est donner ce que l’on a pas reçu”.

- Yes Our candidates presented all signs to be “good-enough Mothers “. (as described by Donald Winnicot)

{“The good-enough mother…starts off with an almost complete adaptation to her infant’s needs, and as time proceeds she adapts less and less completely, gradually, according to the infant’s growing ability to deal with her failure…” (from “Transitional Objects and Transitional Phenomena,” 1951)}

Each baby had been a priority, (every pair of candidates and solo Tige Ald had been excellent nurses, with love, attention and lot of cuddles accorded to the demanding child they had to take care about.

- Anorexic people have always reserve of energy in mind, and some are able to struggle for a marathon, that means 3-4 hours of intensive effort.

But after, they’re more than empty and have to admit to be feed even a little bit.

Hypoglycemia represents one of biggest threat on Marathon and collapsing can happen suddenly when blood sugar below 70mg/dL. Blood sugars at this level can harm you badly.

“Untreated, hypoglycemia from too much insulin can lead to loss of consciousness and coma.

Severe hypoglycemia is a medical emergency that may result in seizures and permanent damage to the nervous system if not treated.

Severe hypoglycemia that results in unconsciousness is also called insulin shock.”

In despite all of these common ideas of good tips for good runner, our three anorexic young women were able to finish their marathon in less than 3 hours, with baby on the back, sleeping tight and having sweet dreams, feeling secure with “Running Mummy”.

Alice Odilon. 29/07/2011. All rights reserved.

And the anorexic winners are…!

On 14 of April 1991, candidates had been selected by the Akan’s Team Jury and time has gone to give their name and identity.

Then, the best European anorexic candidates were revealed at a sold out ceremony which took place at Anta-city in the Flyinglands, on this opening night of the  24/24 Anorexia night, edition of Akan’s Company.

It was 22:42 pm and everybody was exhausted and hungry.

-  More than 333332 votes were cast by fans to decide the winners in the Worst Anorexia category.

- Best Medium-sized anorexic winner: Avatan Nihili, the 23 kg teen girl who was nearly 1,75m and only 15 of age, but was brilliant at school and very shy.

- Best Small weight winner: Asael Rienick, with her 1,62 m and her 21 kg, who had been working as a self-employed “Tightrope sleepwalker” for 4 years, without harming her frail nimble disembodied body.

 

“Self-Portrait” The Tightrope sleepwalker. Alice Odilon 2010. Copyrights

 

- Best New Anorexic winner: Hyppolyte H,  was an ex-obese young cook, who had been starving for two years as Chief cook of Three stars Michelin restaurant, after discovering his true dream to become a trapeze artist.


Pictures of flying trapeze artists at the peak moment of the grab. 

- Best Indoor fast girl: NatNat the ghostly weight-watcher coach who was definitely to weak to coach anybody dieting, but has been previously awarded as the fastest losing weight candidate in UK, that means losing 35 kg in 2 months.

- Best European Anorexic Line-up: Whiteswimm  the pale and pinky dressed ballerina, who was vomiting every meal, even the most frugal one.

“Akoya Ballet Dancer”. Alice Odilon 2007. Copyrights.

- Best Newcomer: Reine Frung: the ex-psychiatrist fallen in storm of anorexia addiction, after being involved in a special unit “Beating eating-disorder” in NHS.

- Best Headliner: Andrée Solange J. : mother of five,  hard worker house wife managing in plus a cleaning company with 7 employees.

- Best Oversplit Ballistic Stretched Anorexic contortionist Tige Ald, who was able to practice super-split equally on both legs without any injuries and with a lot of enthusiasm.

“Happy Contortionist”. Google Images

 

- Best Anorexic Runner: Aza Wakh performing Paris Marathon in only 2 hours and 28 mn.

 

“Self-Portrait” Anorexic Run. Alice Odilon Copyrights 2010

- Best Anorexic dancer: Ana Cunningham, who was the twin of Merce Cunningham, the Master of Choregraphy.

 

“Merce Cunningham”. Google Image.

Finally only 10 candidates have been selected.

Akan’s Team had considered how huge their task was to care of these 10 special persons and decided to close the competition with that, in order to manage these 10 anorexic characters, the best they could.

Alice Odilon. 7/7/2011. All right reserved.

 

La Tour Akanienne ou le lieu des états modifiés de conscience

L’anorexie est la réalité, le “stimuli” dans la vie de d’Akan; un état de veille, un rêve de corps invivable, un sommeil profond d’un chagrin immense.

Vivre simultanément un régime alimentaire drastique tout en persistant dans l’effort d’acuité visuelle, coexistant avec un entraînement d’athlète marathonienne, met Akan en contact avec l’Absolu qui n’est autre pour elle que le Réel.

Il s’agit d’un jeu d’équilibriste entre le rêve éveillé alimenté par une nourriture essentielle considérée comme “pure”,  et l’effort extrême du corps.

Les gens disent: “L’anorexie c’est mourir vivante”, et cependant Akan vit sa vie d’ascète, intensément, esprit au travail, corps au travail permanent.

Cela demande un détachement physique et en même temps un effort musculaire soutenu.

Quand je regarde Akan, je vois son corps rejoindre l’état d’un cerisier en fleur, lié au ciel et la lumière.

Elle semble avoir atteint un niveau de conscience sensorielle élargie, où elle appréhende sa place de manière transparente, infiniment discrète et fragile.

Elle vit le présent sans attendre de bonnes choses venant de l’avenir.

Elle est une bête silencieuse, presque invisible.

Tout naturellement la tour akanienne est devenu le nid des personnes en état modifié de conscience.

La tour est comme un arbre en fleurs.



“La Tour Akanienne”. Alice Odilon Avril 2011.

 

Des personnages fleurs,  simples, perdus dans des valeurs perdues, avec des rêves de bonheur comme celui de vivre dans un tableau de Pierre Bonnard, assis à la table du  jardin sous les ombrages.

 

“Table set in a garden”. Pierre Bonnard.


Alice Odilon. Avril 2011.

 

Anorexia, marathon and achievement

“Anorexia run”.Copyright Alice Odilon Janvier 2010.


Akan la maigre, court  sur le tapis de course depuis 2 heures et déjà son visage osseux ruissèle de sueur, des mots mal dits.

Sur l’écran, les chiffres parlent: 27km, vitesse 13.5

Des kilomètres parcourus sans autre but que d’être brûlés comme des calories condamnés.

Affichés  sur l’écran ces signes vous disent:  Akan court,  respire, suit un rythme cardiaque identifiable, mais ne vous parlent pas de ce monde où elle vit réellement : celui  de la Photographie.

Et pourtant Akan ne mange que des amandes, du pain et  du chocolat et boit du Shiraz avec prédilection.

Jamais d’excès en matière d’ingurgitation, elle a toujours eu peur d’avaler; horreur d’avaler sa mort et sa vie dans une même déglutition et d’étouffer soudainement de n’être plus cet oiseau là qui sautille librement en évitant le chat.

Akan, l’athlète sèche comme la vigne, regarde droit devant, sans plus attendre les réponses à ses années de quête photographique.

Implacable Master photography, rien ne peut ficeler le média, Fine Art Photography, n’appartient à personne, c’est une entité absolue comme la peinture, l’écriture.

Quand on la clef, on est sauvé.

Akan accède aux jouissances  pleines du marathon et au paradis de l’écriture.

Mais jamais l’argent, jamais le pouvoir social.

La rançon de vivre son art libre,  coûte la vie.

Et çà Akan le sait quand elle monte sur l’appareil de fitness le plus populaire.

Alice Odilon. Septembre 2010.

Akan among the egoists

Avant Akan était l’indésirable Mistigri, la sale égoïste, et pour cela elle aurait voulu être servante 24 heures sur 24, renonçant au moindre de ses propres besoins.

Focalisée sur sa culpabilité, elle ne se rendait pas compte de l’égoïsme des autres et de leur manipulations envers elle.

S’accusant à tord de leur maux, elle fut le parfait instrument bouc émissaire et le boucémissaire des faibles: la sorcière.

Akan vit la vie s’éteindre.

Akan faisant semblant de ne pas souffrir, dominait tous les autres, attentifs à leurs seuls désirs et besoins insatiables.

Pour survivre à leur égoïsme et leur aveuglement, leurs certitudes, leurs idées claires, leurs carrières en pleine croissance, leurs voitures, leur cigarettes, leur argent,

leur vérité incontournable, leur racisme extrême,

Akan n’eut qu’un choix dans la vie: l’anorexie ou le suicide.


“La ligne de l’anorexie ou le suicide”. copyright Alice ODILON 2010.


In the past she had believed she was these only one dirty egoist, they were hunting night and day in order to salve their peaceful lifes, and for this reason she would have like to be a maidservant 24 hours a day, giving up, ignoring her own essential needs.

Focused on her guiltiness, she did not realized the selfishness of the others and their handling towards her.

Accusing herself of being a monster, the black hole, she had been the perfect scapegoat and the shield of weaks: the witch.

Akan saw the life’s death.

Akan pretending not suffering, dominated in secret everybody only caring of its selfish desires and insatiable needs.

To survive their blindness, their certainty, their clear ideas, their full growing carriers, their cars, their cigarettes, their money, their unavoidable matter of life, their extreme racism, Akan had just one choice in life: Anorexia or suicide.

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